what i’ve been up to in the last six months

(originally written in November 2020)

  • reading hundreds of self help books@#$%*&
  • doodling
  • organizing notes
  • devising timetables, abandoning them, starting new ones
  • scolding myself for being unproductive and lolling on bed all day
  • researching about importance of mental health
  • defining and redefining success
  • pretending to be happy
  • reviewing presentation notes
  • getting lost in the past
  • taking couses from Mindvalley, PerfectlySpoken, Coursera and various other sites
  • picking quotes from books, blogs and everywhere else
  • listening to songs
  • reading previous diary entries and everything else I’d written last year
  • worrying about the future
  • drawing a long long list of vocabulary(which I hope gets misplaced or forgotten about),
  • filling more and more notebooks with running notes
  • skipping school(literally I’m allowed to do that wow),
  • self portraits and portraits,
  • being disgusted by my previous posts and being on the verge of deleting them
  • reading poems and plays and movie scripts
  • concluding that the (my) subconscious mind is powerless..
  • listing jobs(don’t ask me why-I’m about 8 years ahead of my time -mentally again that is),
  • finished watching all the possible marvel movies ever made,
  • waiting for Spiderman 3(watching plenty of leaks),
  • waiting for Billie Eilish’s documentary ‘the worlds a little blurry’
  • collecting Latin quotes from the Mortal Instruments series,
  • listing(Ik I’ve been mentioning this word a lot) all the possible activities I could engage in during the lockdown (as though it had just begun..)
  • picking out all my favorite lines from Billie Eilish’s and The Weeknd’s songs
  • devising creative forces and reading 7 highly effective habits,
  • studying transfer of human energies and moods and a bit about body language
  • getting addicted to listening to euphoria’s visualizer
  • getting lonely
  • adoring Zendaya’s transformation from Shake It Up to Euphoria
  • declaring social media as evil and falling for it again(works like magic)
  • telling myself everything is perfectly normal
  • pretending to be happy(wait did i say that again?)
  • reading books written by all sorts of preists and gurus
  • practising self love (or atleast trying to)
  • being realistic in life and real dumb in imagination(i mean, it’s imagination right)
  • talking to maself 24/7
  • realising that everything around me is changing; everything in me is changing too and it’s happening really really quick.
  • hoping that i can trust my readers with the teeeny tiny part of me that i pour out in this blog

I know the past few months have been really hard for all of us, no wonder how things happen all of a sudden, in a blur, and we’ve all been busy lately ignoring things we should be doing at the moment thinking it would save up time for studying. But you know there is nothing like eternity or whatever- you can’t get rid of someone or something you love or something you’re drawn to, something you’d once given time to. I thought I could stop blogging but I kept getting back to it ,resisted the urge of posting but here I am. This post doesn’t make much sense(like the all the others of course) but it’s an excuse to get ‘the feeling’ back. All I know is that there’s no point in deleting your blog, website, video game or social media account and by doing so you’re just waging an unnecessary war in yourself.

Public Speaking

(originally written in May 2020)

Here’s a list of essential devices that will spice up your next speech/essay


Rhetorical devices

Alliteration: repetition of vowel sounds

amplification: ideas aranged in an increasing order of importance

Analogy: [like/as comparision

Anamnesis: recollection of the past

Anaphora: Same word or phrase begins with more than one statement

Antithesis: Two ideas are placed in opposition

Ethos: Character

Speech needs to be effective

Reptation /demonstrated knowledge

Pathos: Experience/sufferage

Shared value between speaker and audience

Asyndentation: not using ‘and’ in a list

Humor: only to be used occasionally

Inclusive language: We and Our Trustworthy

Metaphor: Word phrase wont literally apply

Parallelism: using similar gramatical structure

Repetition: Return to ideas often

emphasize a single idea

Highlight a specific word idea

Bonus: Dear reader, I present to you the most powerful device ever discovered theeee RULE OF THREE

Don’t overwhelm the audience with superfluos information

Items appearing in groups of three

Focus on important points

Ex: volume

  • pitch
  • RhythM
  • Dramatic : emphasize words by stressing on them


(Originally written in July 2020)

Foot notes from ‘How To Win Friends And Influence People by Dale Carnegie’- the all time best-seller

Don’t Criticize, Condemn, Or Complain

  • Criticism is futile because it puts a person on the defensive and usually makes him strive to justify himself.
  • Crirtism is damgerous, because it wounds a person’s pride,hurts his sense of importance, and arouses resentment.
  • any fool can critisize condemn and complain-and most fools do.But it tskes character and self-control to be understanding and forgiving.
  • “A great man shows his greatness by the way he treats little man.”-said Cartyle.
  • “To know all is to forgive all”

Give Honest And Sincere Appreciation

  • “I shall pass this way but once; any good, therefore, that I can do or any kindness that I can show to any human being, let me do it now. Let me not defer nor neglect it, for I shall not pass this way again.”
  • “Every man I meet is my superior in some way. In that, I learn of him.”said Emerson.
  • Be “hearty in your appreciation and lavish in your praise”, and people will cherish your words and treasure them and repeat them over a lifetime–and repeat them years after you have forgotten them.
  • The only way to influence people is to talk in terms of what they want.
  • “Arouse in the other person an eager want. He who can do this has the whole world with him, he who cannot walks a lonely way”, said Harry Overstreet.

(to be continued…)

best poetry-Dead Poets Society


Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer’s lease hath all too short a date;

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance or nature’s changing course untrimm'd;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade,

Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow’st;

Nor shall death brag thou wander’st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st:

   So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

   So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

warring factions

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warring with life

Do we fight in wars? Or do we strive to end them?

All we do is choose sides and hope we win.

What about the destruction and casualties of our so-called enemies? Children being slaughtered; women widowed; homes abandoned; dying men; killing the innocents.

Make peace. This doesn’t mean that you surrender. Its just a broad aggreement, an approach that is a total game changer. I mean did anyone ever think of this-during WWI or WWII?

Some say love can end wars. (As portrayed by Diana in Wonder Woman)

What does war mean to humanity?

We are created by our beliefs. That is for sure. And sometimes our detetrmination is so strong that previously problematic issues seem negligible. We start looking at the world from a global perspective.

Maybe all of us don’t look at problems that way, maybe our dreams will always remain hallucinations.


I woke up to a start, last night. It was somewhere around 3 or 4 I don’t know honestly. Maybe I had a nightmare. Its noon now and I’m trying (struggling, actually) to remember my dreams. It’s weird, you know, something that scared me out of my mind is now hard to be remembered.

And before I knew it, soft pearly drops oozed out of eyes. I don’t even know why. It just happened and then this beautiful song called ‘walk but in a garden’ started playing in my mind. And words might not be enough to describe that fragile feeling that I held on to, fearing that it might disappear, fearing that it might be forgotten, fearing that I’d sleep too soon.

I emotionally related to its lyrics. Now, they barely make any sense, but then, they were heavenly.

The days are drifting slowly by
I guess I'll be here 'til July
I find it hard to have no answers
But the thought of us can make the time go by
We could walk but in a garden
We could talk while at the market
Taking moments of our days to be alone
While we don't have all the answers
We still know what truly matters
Keeping hope alive despite the darkest storm
The days are drifting slowly by
I guess I'll be here 'til July
I find it hard to have no answers
But the thought of us can make the time go by
Yeah, the thought of us can make the time go by
Yeah, the thought of us can make the time go by

Source: Musixmatch

:study tips:

Let’s get straight into it!

  1. For every 30 mins of studying, take a small, refreshing 5 min break. In these 5 mins, do something you love! Repeat this and you can effortlessly study for 6 hours straight!
  2. Maintain a study lamp. Turn on the lamp to make the ambiance a little intense; it will let you concentrate better.
  3. Be ACTIVE in learning! Don’t just blindly memorize stuff. Rote-memorization never works(If you’re going for long-term memory).Understand what you’re reading. Ask yourself: Am I learning a concept or a fact? Also, if you are memorizing a formula, make sure you go through its proof or derivation, as they help you remember them clearly and for a really long time.
  4. Sleep properly, 8 hrs on an average. Sleep throughout the night and try not to wake up often.
  5. Take notes, attend all sessions, and participate actively, by asking relevant doubts and questions.
  6. Teach someone else! (this is certainly my favorite one). If you don’t have siblings at home, try teaching a chair.(no kidding)
  7. Use mnemonics, acronyms, coined sayings, interactive images, flash cards and everything you can do to memorize facts and other stuff.
  8. SQ3R [ Survey Question Recite Read Review]
  9. Do not multitask. Watching television while doing history is as bad as reading the movie while watching history.


Hope this helps! 🙂

Beyond Our Dreams

that seed

placed in your cherry red palm

that seed

plopped into my favorite jar


that seed

forgotten about too soon

that seed

helping feeble buds bloom


that seed

so rare, so fragile

that seed

the most intricately designed


that seed

the giver of a life

that seed

as blue as your eyes


that seed

twenty flares within

that seed

always promises your win


that seed

traveled through oceans and skies

that seed

who could be even wiser?


that seed

absorbing all that pain

that seed

turning its feelings into a drop of rain


that seed

loved by gods and demons alike

that seed

burn like embers, ablaze like quasars


that seed

its time you come home

rest in your velvety bed of soil

and tell us the stories

of the wildest worlds you’ve seen

beyond our dreams

Extinguishing fires

when the words

long to leave

the parched mouths

craving freedom

when the desire

burns all around

turning black and blue

setting fire

when the mind

fills with whispering voices

feasting upon

the remnant truth

when the arm

stretches out

but is held back

by those rusted chains

when everything fails

all is gone waste

put a full stop in my life’s story

for it shall never begin again

when all my energy

is exhausted

closing those mouths

clearing those minds

comforting with lies

and extinguishing fires